Where gray daisies came from…
Life is not Black & White. In fact, even Rainbows of Color are few and far between! Between the black and white, the smudged edges and blended colors – that’s the Gray Area…and it is a world filled with beauty & truth.
Happiness is overrated. Why spend life chasing (or searching) for “the happy” when it can only ever exist in quick flashes and bursts? That quest leads only to disappointment and exhaustion!
I want contentment – thriving in the ordinary – being at peace with myself & the smudged edges and blended colors of my Gray Life.
I welcome the the bursts of unbelievable color and light that elevate and remind me true hope, inspiration and love really do exist in this universe. I understand (albeit sometimes reluctantly) that the darkest, deepest, seemingly bottomless blacks provide me with balance and a deeper gratitude for my life. In between all of this, I am content to thrive in this Gray Area of Ordinariness that blankets me, keeping me safe & warm.
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I wrote this back in March 2012, just weeks before I hit the publish button for the first time on gray daisies.
It still applies.
Afterall, it truly is the gray area that makes life exciting, beautiful, and a little bit daunting at times (ok – a lot daunting at times!). But I’ll take it – daunting and all – thankyouverymuch!
Coincidentally, a few months after starting gray daisies (May/June 2012), I found out my mother suffers from Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). It explained so much to me about my childhood and my adult relationship with her and my father. It also opened a floodgate of emotions and memories.
With this blog I hope to reach out to other adult children of a BPD parent with my story, my journey. I hope to promote healing through sharing my words with the world — mine and yours.
{salem archer anderson}
graydaisies [at] gmail [dot] com
p.s. your comments & emails are always welcome!
